Realizing things that scare you.

Maybe it's because it's my favorite time of the year... you know when the leaves change colors and it starts cooling off or maybe it's because I've been hearing about so many weddings or dreaming of a wedding, what ever it is I realized tonight that the thought of marriage scares me. While the idea and "fairy tale" stories seem so wonderful and all... the reality and knowing the hard work and watching a marriage fall apart before my eyes makes the though of marriage scary. Right now the though of dating someone is enough to make me want to run away in fear.